hat and sweater~ both are super old/don't remember where i got them!
coat~ hand-me-down from megan
boots~ gift from my mother-in-law
so, i mentioned on wednesday that i will be in mexico one week from today. and yes, i am very, very excited. but i am also completely anxious and freaking out. why? because we are not taking our kids with us. jim's parent's are coming to stay at our house and take care of mimi and ben while jim and i are away. and i know they will be amazingly well cared for. jim's parents are awesome and ben and mimi will be in great hands. that is not why i am nervous. i have just never been away from them for a whole weekend. and ben is still so little! we are going to mexico for the wedding of some dear friends and i really don't want to miss it, but a big part of me really does not want to go. we booked the trip when i was
delusional pregnant, and i didn't really think about how young ben would still be and how hard it would be to be away for a whole weekend. what was i thinking, people??? i have literally been lying awake almost every night the past week just thinking about leaving and crying. i'm a mess. i keep thinking that ben won't remember me when we get home or that mimi will have had so much fun with her grandparents that she won't want me anymore. i know these fears are irrational, but i cannot help it. i have told jim multiple times that i can't go and that i will give my ticket to someone else. of course, i cannot do this. and we can't really afford for me to not go at this point. so, i will go. and we will have tons of fun, i am sure. and i will miss my children terribly. and, hopefully they will miss me, but not too much. and hopefully they will remember me and want me back when i get home. i know time away will be good for both jim and i and for the kids. i know it is healthy for all of us. that said, if anyone has any anxiety meds they want to give me for the plane ride, that would be much appreciated!
happy friday! i hope you all have a great weekend!
xoxo, nora bird